today is going to be a good day.
i just know it.
yesterday was not such a good day... but everyone has those now and then, right?
i feel like i have a world to catch up on as my mental facilities have been sidelined for a couple of days.

yesterday i went to the gym at lunch and did cardio for 40 minutes.
then after work met with Ronnie, my muay thai kickboxing trainer, and he kicked my ass for 45 minutes.
he doesn't let me quit or say no.
which is what i need.
lots of kicking yesterday too - i love the sound my shin makes on his pads.
but there was a class in the group room so we were in the middle of the gym and i also realized I'm one of those loud people you hear from the other side of the gym and wonder WTF is she doing.
But when you're punching and kicking as hard as you can AND doing 50 in a row when you don't think you can do 50 in a row so you just tell yourself to fucking do it - I don't see how you couldn't grunt and scream a little.

Anyways, I am really enjoying this kickboxing thing.
i can already tell my legs are firming up and my obliques are in constant ache which is AMAZING.
i can't wait to spar with someone.... but that's in months and months and months ...

Last night around 3am I woke up because my back was spasming.
I never really fully got back to sleep.
It was the weirdest thing - everything that had happened during the day was streaming back in to my head exactly as it had happened in vivid true color. Really weird.
I also started doubting whether I'm too old to be taking up this kickboxing thing.
I mean, i know i can work the stamina, but are my bones and body too old?
I also decided I really need to do Pilates again to strengthen my core/back. When i was doing it regularly, like, 10 years ago, i recall how free from back pain i was. It was awesome.
I also desperately need a massage - like every muscle used for kickboxing is screaming at me - especially my quads, forarms and glutes/lower back. I'm not kickboxing again until Saturday - just concentrating on cardio and stamina, which I have embarrassingly little of.

Also last night I got lost on flickr.
Really for the first time ever.
I found this one artist who I looked at for portfolio for at least an hour:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/kristamasklousch/
I am soooooo enamoured with her images I can't even express it in words.
They make me ooze with inspiration and want and need and a bit of jealousy.
I want to try some of her ideas for my 366 - but i also don't want to compromise my promise to myself about not using photoshop on my pictures. Maybe I can find a happy medium. Maybe I should start using the black and white or sepia settings on my camera. And all the other color settings it has - which are a TON.

in other news.....

TONIGHT TONIGHT TONIGHT
we're going to see DeVotchKa at Variety Playhouse!!!!!!!!!!
OMG I am so excited - this will be our 3rd time seeing them AND at my favorite venue here in Atlanta!
I like their new CD alot. If you don't know who they are, one of their songs from their last full length was featured in the movie Little Miss Sunshine - I believe "How it Ends"
It's gonna be so fun!
They always inspire me so.

i just took a really fun class at the gym - "strength training"
the instructor is new - frankie - and he's this little hispanic guy who sounds like cesar milan.
he was cracking me up so much - though probably unintentionally!

for instance when doing squats:
"stick your butt out baby"

(oh, and i'm pretty sure he's gay so i wasn't offended whatsoever!)

and when we were doing pushups he demostrated the 3 ways depending on the strength level - there's a way called doggy style and he kept saying doggie style. LMAO.

jeez i could go on.
i can't wait until next week though!
he's fun.
and i can tell he did a good job shredding my muscles!