Oh my.
I just did something really bad.
But I'm going to try and turn it into a learning experience.

I skipped Zumba because i just feel way too tired to be able to get anything out of it.
So, instead i went out to eat with some co-workers.
We went to a different food court.
There was a salad place - like build your own.
But then, I saw Burger Joes.
OMFG, I had no idea there were multiple locations! There was one by my old work I used to go to once a week. They have the best veggie burger I've ever tasted in my life there.
I swear to god they put crack in them.
So, i'm standing in line having a personal war of wills and decide fuck it i'm getting a burger.
I was drooling.
I wanted it so bad my head was vibrating.
I couldn't think of anything else but how bad I wanted that veggie burger.

I bit into it and OMG it was just as delicious as I remember.
And it's not one of those healthy veggie burgers. They slather it with special amazing cracked out sauce and chedder cheese and I'm sure some sort of grease or oil on the grill.
Even better.
I ate 3/4 of it.
I stopped myself even though I easily could've eaten more but I knew I wasn't hungry anymore.
So one point for the home team there.

This is where I learn:
So about 15 minutes after eating I start to get really dizzy.
And even more drowsy.
My eyes get blurry and I'm seeing 2 of everything.
I'm a little tingly, no make that alot tingly.
My scalp and my finger tips.
I feel FAT again.
I feel self concious.

It tasted sosososoooo good, but, I don't think this is worth it.
If i went home now I'd definately take a nap - not finish the AMAZING Beastie Boys scrap page I started last night.

I MUST REMEMBER THIS FEELING for next time.
I'm not even that ashamed or disappointed that my willpower faulted me, I'm more concerned if I can stay away for the next 3 hours of work. And now I must make a plan on how I can do extra cardio tonight/tommorrow/Saturday to work off the extra calories.

I WILL do it.